Strength Within

I need strength right now ! Strength to withstand all the things happening right now , around me ! Yes, its not the worse. I am not struggling like with all those who are fighting for their lives but I am.
Being on bed for almost 3 weeks now. Suffering with anxiety of maybe contracting with covid and affecting my family has taken a toll. No it wasn’t covid. It was typhoid. Seeing my sister’s wedding planning reduced to mere "just do with it" and survive. Struggling with body image issues when people just comments on you "You lost weight?doesn’t look like it !" When on the other side they don’t know that I haven’t eaten a pizza slice for more than 4 months now.
Seeing your one vibe you felt after years , going down the whatsapp chats. Oh that feeling of crap you feel , once you realise you let in somebody yet again !
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Damn, I survived this and much more. First there was a feeling of anxiety, overthinking and hatred towards oneself for about first two week . Because what all you would do when you are told to bed rest. It was eating me up.
Then I started moving away. Moving away from social media because negativity was straining in deep within. Now the best way to crap all it down, I write. I write a lot.
This is one such feeling.
Hoping to world gets better and you all have strength to fight. Fight anything. Not only covid. But demons within and demons outside. ❤️