Cry in her mind

Chaos in her mind. One thought linking to another; overlapping and creating the web. One memory from the past seeks the way to the new one being made.

And she still wanted to say so many things to him.The things she wished he would understand by the look from her eyes.

Eyes say a lot, they say; So was he pretending or just plain stupid.She wishes he could read them.

Because she fears. Yes, she fears; her eyes fear for not having him to look at him again. Her hands fear for not having to clutch his hands again. Her heart fears for not having to fall for anyone again.

She knows he is perfect, but so was the previous one.She fears to fall in love again.She fears to say things; because this chapter of life is not new.

She has read it before; lived it before. It was beautiful but never ended well.She fears the consequences of not being wanted again.

She stands firm irrespective of every feeling she is feeling; not to fall again for anybody.

And leave him in tears, because she cannot explain.